There are days when I get very overwhelmed with the past and I never know when I will get struck by an old experience that throws me for a loop. It gets tiresome, to say the least.
Just recently, I saw a picture of a young relative of mine on social media that showed her as BFF with a woman who, in a past job, was literally hired to take my job away from me. She was 20 years younger than me. That was a horrific time in my life. My heart started racing when I learned about friendship with my relative.
But, the difference now is that those overwhelming feelings don’t last for long. I’ve gained tools and understanding that get me through these types of onslaughts of past feelings in a matter of hours, sometimes minutes.
What I’ve realized over the past few years is that I will never be “completely healed”. So, I accept that and I’m usually not surprised when it happens. I recently came across a quote that really spoke to me. It gave me courage and I hope it does the same for you.
Of course there are varying degrees of memories that harm me in the present. The really good news is that through the use of EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing), meditation, and my other daily practices of balance, they don’t harm me as much as they used to and some don’t harm me at all. Although they are still vivid memories, they carry no emotions with them. From my perspective, that’s a huge relief.
If you identify with my experience(s), if you have a comment or questions – whatever – let me know. I want to hear from you.
Together we light the way.